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10.20.2001

i really like synth lately for some reason. so, that makes synth and acoustic. i wish i had my keyboard... and recording equipment, for that matter.

i started downloading a lot of eighties synth pop last night. tears for fears, OMD, modern english and like... pet shop boys.

10.19.2001

I got a bike. it's not my bike. but i rode it. i rode it three miles into town today. there was a long hill that made me go fast. i went to the laundromat where i WASHED CLOTHES. i rode up and down main street for whatever reason, when i decided to stop at this place to get a quesadilla... but they didn't have quesadillas... so i got a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. i ate it. then i went back and put my clothes in the dryer. i left the laundromat again because the only people that would steal my clothes were old people, and it would be funny to see an old person wearing loose pants and a quicksilver shirt. i decided to ride up a really big hill to simon's rock so i could see mally. i got there. she was in the library. we sat in the library for awhile. then we went back to her room and lay in each others arms for a long time. i gave her a massage. then i had to ride back, get my clothes and try to get home before it got too dark. oh, i went to the store before i went home. some girls tried to pick me up. i turned them down because i have a lovely, beautiful girlfriend. then i rode home. the hill that made me go fast at first made me go slow this time. it got dark before i got home. i hurt. i'm sore. i'm tired... there's a leak in my room. we had to shut the water off.

if i was in canada, i'd give bryan o'malley a big hug. just because.

10.15.2001

this is me... i guess:
Click here to find out what robot you really are

10.11.2001

i don't really have anything to say here... nothing is happening... the whole blog thing just isn't really that interesting anymore.

10.05.2001

in the interest of nothing, i thought i'd play a little game. i'm going to try to describe how some of the people i've met online sound in RL (real life) in the order that i think i met them. it's not really a game.

eisu: eisu was the first person i actually met from the internet. he was sitting behind a booth at AX selling things. eisu's real name is something like Remy something. he has a mid-range tone in his voice and, surprisingly, only a mild malaysian accent. sometimes he says things and it sounds like he has a hot dog in his mouth, but only sometimes.

locke: i met locke while i was sitting at the table. i must have dozed off, because when i looked up, he was sitting next to me. he was very friendly. his name is josh. josh is a leader in large groups of people. i mean, i guess... i don't know. he sort of tells people when things are about to happen and stands back or climbs a wall while they happen. i guess that's leaderish.

i remember sitting between josh and eisu while fanboys came up. it was rather sad. they would quietly say, "locke... locke... umm... eisu... eisu..." and mope away with their heads pointed down when they got no response. did i say it was sad? i meant it was funny.

mal: mal was bigger than i expected i think... and i think i was bigger than he expected. i sort of remember mal giving me five when we first met, but that would have been really stupid. mal is really quiet a lot of the time... but won't hesitate to say something really xtreme and witty to make it not really matter. i'm not sure who started it, but we all sort of have this random high pitched squealing sound that we probably should get beat up for... anyway, i think mal does it best. he's very canadian in the way that his inflection rises and falls at random times when he asks questions. it makes no logical sense. he also says "soory" sometimes, but not all the time.

mally: mally sounded like sex the first time i heard her. mally sort of sounds really bored and tired when she's explaining things that she knows very well, but sounds excited and happy when she finds new and amazing things that are; a) absurd, b) silly, c) exciting or d) amazing. the first time i met her she was wearing a pink shirt and grey pants. she was really hot. she goes, "eeeeeeee" a lot and does it at very random unexpected times. she can be very sultry and suductive at the drop of a hat. i guess she sort of has some kind of mutant michigan/canadian accent sometimes, because she also randomly says "soory."

alice: i met alice the other night. alice annunciates everything very well. but she does it in a really funny way. not in a bad funny way... just like... she doesn't talk about tea and dinner parties all the time while annunciating... which is funny to me for whatever reason. she's also very laid back or something, which i guess i am also. she wears sort of baggy pants. she has cute cheeks that i wanted to squeeze, but i wasn't sure what the repercussion of that would be.

dur.

10.04.2001

another melodramatic conjecture: everyone wants to be someone else, but no one wants to be me.

i want to be me. everyone else has a problem with who they are and wish that they could just be someone who was more talented or more stable or had bigger breasts. the fact that the majority of the population has major problems and no one knows it makes everything a little scary. it's like this huge boomerang effect that's caused by so many people hiding what's wrong with them. so they think they're the only ones with problems. which just makes everything worse.

i understand being scared shitless, but i can't just run away from everything. it seems like i always take up too much space to stay anywhere, though. sorry.

10.03.2001

i'm in MA right now, hanging out with all the small, young, semicolon using Simon's Rock kids. I'm also doing all sorts of boyfriend/girlfriend things with mally. which makes sense, since she's my girlfriend.

the trip here was hard. i'm looking for an apartment now. we had dinner with alice and sarah the other night. nick drove me very far in his fast manual transmission car yesterday. later in the evening me and mally made playdoh with some people. i had a dream about david duchovney this morning.

here's a tip for anyone who's thinking of moving across the country and looking for a place to rent: be a millionaire.

oh, and death by forums is kicking along nicely. it makes me think that people will actually enjoy the site.