despite all of the stupid songs that i have written recently, i am still kind of a retarded hopeless romantic. i still want all of those lying around and kissing and sighing things. i don't want to break anyone's heart and i don't hate anyone's eyes and i'm not really mean. i am, maybe, okay, a little cynical. but i don't like it and don't want to be.

i have only seen tiny specks of the cheesy romantic jacob in the past few years. and when it comes out totally it is almost over the top but at least tasteful, i think. maybe. i totally want back all that stuff and i want my songs to have an excuse to be cheesy and romantic again. but i don't even know where to start... i don't even know where to start!!!

i've said and done some stupid things to people, i guess. i've made people cry. i feel pretty horrible about that?? it's not like it was on purpose, but i hate making people cry!

i guess if you've ever really seen that hopeless romantic jacob, you would probably know that these songs are just dumb jokes and they are very cryptic and if you knew the actual context that probably only exists in my head, you might find them terribly romantic and not sad or mean at all. but, i don't know. i don't know!!