there are two new songs on purevolume. one is just a stripped down re-record of one of the songs that was already on there (1000 x maybe) and the other one is brand new (liar liar, power slider). i think the new one is one of the most optimistic songs i've written in a while. i'm not being sarcastic!! it is also secretly, really, a love song.

i think there are other things i maybe should have been doing besides recording a song, but i'm really kind of totally stressed out right now, okay!!!

i bought a new cowboy type shirt today but i don't think it matters because i think everyone hates me now!

here is the deal:
- my feet are really really dry.
- i wrote a new song that i like. it is done, except for the lyrics and i don't know what my problem is with finishing lyrics. i am totally dumb and critical.
- i am totally afraid of what will happen in my creative future!
- i am making hope larson's website but it is worrying me because she wants it to look proffesional and i guess i can do that but it is also weird because she is totally already a good artist and i have no idea what i am doing at all. but i'll do it and we'll see what happens. promise.
- there have been some kids from new mexico over recently. somehow that has been the catalyst for my big indie rock outings or whatever. i met some cute kids that are in a band called foma and i talked to simone from call and response and she led us out to their van where she told me about how she has a LETTERPRESS, which is really INSANE??Q! because they are like as big as my room!?!?! also, court and spark played with them and i guess they are pretty good and totally all pretty attractive musicians, just like call and response.
- i hear that the old 97s are coming again soon and i'm fairly certain that i already have a potential partner to go with me to that show!??
- i really like music and i think i do it fairly well. except when i do it badly. but generally i'm okay. i really want to play shows or something and maybe i can actually make it happen now. i think.

i've decided to stop choosing whether things are good or bad and instead am only choosing whether they are pretentious or sincere.

i think that maybe the reason i don't like livejournal is because it seems to breed a well developed hatred of me. just like the rest of the internet!!

in other news, i'm writing another stupid song and who knows if you'll ever hear it because you're probably not stupid enough to get it!?!?!?