by the way, i'm probably never talking about what you think i'm talking about anymore.

but no, i suppose i'll be less vague. though, it obviously goes against my nature. i sort of asked a girl out on sunday. she worked at a restaurant on the ave. she was very pretty and nice and she had red hair instead of the black i mistook it for when i asked one of the other waiters her name. she said something about it being a rule that she didn't date people she met at work and i asked her if i could accidentally meet her somewhere else and she genuinely laughed (because the delivery was funnier than it seems in this post) and said that, yes, i totally could. though, i think she was just being nice - which we've already established she is - and she didn't use the word 'totally'. but, wait, anyway. it's not that i haven't asked other people out, it's just that this was the first time anyone actually said 'date' in reference to hanging out with me and then subsequently kind of said no. i always ask to hang out as opposed to going on dates because i am far too shy to be so blunt or imposing. as it were.

but yeah, i mean, she was very nice about it all. and i find it hard to be too depressed about these things lately because it's understandable and i've done the same thing to other people. i just don't seem to be any good at picking and choosing. proffesional superb quality matchmakers would make the world an easier place. probably not as exciting. but easier. though, it begs the question: why does cupid totally suck at his one and only job?