nothing is ever as great as the day you find that you're a complete idiot... and that's not sarcasm. seriously. thank jeebus.

you all of a sudden see this huge open space in front of you... more than huge. mammoth. and you don't care to even try to traverse it. whatever. you just start walking and see where you end up. no, you don't even "see" where you end up. you just do.

you start to realize that you can feel whatever emotion you feel necessary at any given moment and it will be okay. sadness, anger, happiness. you can be jealous, envious, devious. because when you start denying what you're feeling at an exact moment you just feel your insides tearing you into pieces. so why fight it?

and you can be wrong. gloriously wrong. wrong to whoever. because there is no wrong. just here and there. it sucks to be in between those. and you stop apologizing for being imperfect because you realize that no one wanted to hear your apology in the first place.

then you move on. you forget that you're an idiot and go back to caring for people and places and the intangible.

love,