i've been sitting here typing for an hour now. i've deleted so much, because i realize that it's all whining. i hate that.

so, let me just tell you why you should like me. but instead of telling you all the things i AM, i'm going to tell you all the things i'm NOT.

and so i said:

- i'm not brilliant
- i'm not deep
- i'm not beautiful
- i'm not smarter than you
- i haven't got anything figured out
- i'm wrong. constantly.
- i'm not more mature than you
- i wasn't born with any "abilities"
- i'm not well read
- there is no basis for comparison
- i don't cut my hair regularly
- i'm not cultured
- i don't like coffee
- i don't feel insane
- analyzation is a vice

i'm sure there are more. these are normal defects... i guess. the same ones you have, probably. so it's not whining. it's a celebration of humanity. recognize, if you would.

this is mostly spurred on by getting fan mails. fan mails frighten me. fan mails are the beginning of disappointment. that's why i'm telling you here. more like warning you. don't be surprised when i unintentionally let you down. please.