i seem to be in an odd introspective mood at the moment, so i thought i'd write about... something.

i took a walk today. it's very sunny here in southern california. about 75 degrees fahrenheit. it really made me feel good. the air and the sun seemed to make me feel slightly energized. it also may have been the smell of the air. being a few miles away from the ocean, we tend to get a little bit of ocean breeze every once in awhile. if you've never smelled that, i'm sorry. it's one of my favorite things in the world. it's what makes me sit on the beach for hours, just staring at the water.

i haven't done that for awhile. sit on the beach and stare. sometimes i bring my camera, sketchbook or notebook with me (the results of some of the pictures can be seen here under the photography link). sometimes i really need something like that. i need to get out more. i like to write and draw and photograph. i can write and draw while on my computer, but unless i've gotten out, i have nothing to write or draw about.

mal told me that the post that blogger ate had something to do with travel. i like to travel. i wish i went to more places. i'd like to do the crazy things that i think everyone wants to do. like: spend months just traveling around europe.

i've learned that no two places are the same. the people aren't even the same. even in one town there can be a million different cultures. each home is it's own culture. but i want to start big (countries) and work my way down (houses). or maybe that's starting small and getting bigger?

but that's all the point. finding out that someone on the other side of the planet does things completely different than you do. it's not right or wrong. it's just different. there is no right or wrong (thanks locke). just here and there. i've said this before, haven't i?

i repeat myself a lot. only because there is a constant struggle in my head to understand. so points are made, established, torn apart, reestablished and torn apart again. this is all before the thought leaves my head. once it does leave my head, it's looked over, prodded, poked and generally made a mockery of. all by me, of course. my point of view is constantly changed. never the same. i'd have it no other way. i see this as an advantage, but some people do not.

this seems to be a post riddled with random thoughts. i haven't let one of these out in awhile. this is basically the equivalent of the one line sketch. this is me putting my pencil to the page, looking away at my subject, and drawing for 5 minutes without lifting the lead from the paper. or, i guess there may be some sort of writing equivalent that people do, but i forget.

so... i bought this plush/plastic doll. it's Bumbles the abominable snowman from Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer. he watches over me as i type.

speaking of getting out, i may just take the train down to the beach tommorow and get lost.

before i go, i'll leave you with a list of current projects (as i seem to do on occasion):

- Winter in Spades. this is coming along rather nicely. surprisingly. i'm actually somewhat motivated to do this thing. the script is in process, and character studies have already been started. character sketches have also been done. i'm going all out on this one, just to see where it gets me.
- two songs in the works. well, three, sort of. one joint song that will be worked on whenever anyone has the time.
- looking for work.
- a new section called "death_by_photo" will be up soon. it'll be random photography. i'd like to post daily photography, just to make sure i don't neglect taking pictures.

i go now.