i was going on about how i feel different from the world tonight. i think most of the world is wrong. don't ask me what's right, or even what they're wrong about. i have no clue. but i know they're wrong...

i talk about life sometimes... i say things like, "everything is wrong." and people think i'm being negative or whatever. but i'm not really. it's nice to be wrong. we're so caught up in our egos... it's pretty fucked up.

let me talk about originality. most people say that when they look for something interesting... they'd like it to be original. take film, for instance. most movies get bad reviews that can be summed up as, "unoriginal."

the funny thing is... if it truly was original... you would hate it. you know you would. true originality would be so goddamn unfamiliar that it would frighten you. i'm speaking to YOU. the people who read this website. even us indie kids who think we're listening to original clever music... it's still a bit of the old. if it was truly original, we'd be frightened by it. that's how we would know. we'd run screaming from it. and maybe later we'd crawl back and observe until we learned to be comfortable with it. at least... hopefully.

but... even then. being comfortable is dangerous. we stay in one place... we think everything is right... but it's fucking wrong. you probably hate your job... but you won't admit it. you probably hate yourself... but you won't admit it. or, killing another human is bad, but killing a farm animal for consumption is okay. whatever. we fool ourselves everyday. we make excuses. we're so much worse than we think we are. by our own definitions, we're all bad people.

as a disclaimer, i'd like to make a point that everything i say applies to myself as well...

so, anyway... take a look around. everything is bullshit... and fuck... that's not a bad thing. that gives us freedom. it's nice to know that the only way a consequence can fuck with us is if we let it. it's bullshit. whatever.

i'm gonna go to sleep so i can wake up tomorrow and make some idealistic project into something big...