my website will be gone pretty soon... and there's nothing i can really do about it. unless money spontaneously sprouts from the ground.

also, a list about mally, because it seems appropriate right now:

- she wears things that on anyone else wouldn't be considered unique to them, but she manages to make it unique to her.
- she makes things. she makes things with a love and child like vigor. the things she makes are beautiful because she makes them so.
- she's loud. and goddamnit, do i love how loud she is. because she does have that spot of uninhibited joy that i think she forgets about.
- she's fun. she tries most things at least once.
- she drives with a passion. you can't say whether she drives well or not, because she loves it. that's all that matters.
- she's knowledgable but doesn't let that make her too pretentious to watch trashy movies and have fun at the mall.
- when she kisses, she kisses me completely and very dramatically. it's very passionate and exciting.
- she drinks tea and has quirks. like using tea tree oil and making countless notebooks for herself.
- she plays video games. and when she does, she does so intently. and it makes me swoon to watch.
- she likes music. she listens to music. she listens to music i suggest to her. this seems rare to me, though it might not be. but she makes it clear that she likes some of my suggestions. and that makes me happy.
- when she attempts to play an instrument, whether she has rhythm or not, her expression makes it the cutest and best thing ever.
- occasionally we have been known to make long distance fun.
- she's the most comfortable person in the world to lay next to.
- she does things that make me love her completely.

i felt like i should make this list... for me and for her. things have been rough. i hope more than anything that they get better.