so leah has a new boyfriend and he's "great" and all that stuff. obviously better than her cretin ex-boyfriend. i dont know what to make of it. i talked to her tonight and made her cry apparently. i feel like puking now. i wrote her a nice email. but then i read her journal about how she loves her new boyfriend and i felt like writing another one that said, and i quote: "NEVERMIND I FEEL LIKE PUKING AND IF I WAS THERE ID PUKE ALL OVER YOU"

but honestly. it's all me. im the one who's retarded around her. she's just a little girl. and im an evil, evil, evil boy. with weird weird thoughts. and crazy ideas. i dont think she can hang. that's okay. either i can't hang with them, or they can't hang with me. she said i was vulnerable and she's probably totally right.

whatever. san diego will be fag-tastic. i wish i was gay.