i wonder if we speak out loud enough that it would warrant us writing with so many exclamation marks. though, writing does seem more of an inner dialogue and completely seperate from an audible dialogue. so, i guess it could be justified; our inner persons are most certainly not who we represent ourselves to be. i think. or something. also, i think that it could be easier to be exciting and likeable inside one's head - without all the excess baggage (i.e. a body with vanity).

or, also, not? when you're far away from everyone, you become exclusively the inner person through letters and even phone conversations. the inner dialogue is often unabridged and, when written on a page, definitely more permanent. something spoken can be forgiven more easily than something written.

well, this is different for everyone, i think. the situation is reversed depending on the person and the written can be where structure is and what's said is where chaos is. generally, i think what i write is chaotic; i often write without logic but with some sort of emotion. it's misleading to say that my writing is more honest than what i say, because it's not true. it's more emotional, probably and i'm not so sure emotion can be attributed to honesty at all... or at least logical honesty? it extracts what i'd like in a perfect world, but not what i think is always best.

i also think it can be easy for me to be misunderstood... but, i can't blame anyone for that - i hardly understand anyway.