i can understand the appeal of cigarettes and wine. one burns your lungs while the other burns your stomach. the long term effects can be detrimental, but the immediate effects are by far better than the pull of frustration and hopelessness. loneliness and rejection burns the chest and stomach also, but in quite a different way. in a way that is unbearable. cigarettes and wine are a blanket for all of this - covering up what is unwanted, keeping it warm. it's an easy escape. a dangerous one.

cigarettes and wine: substituting for love, hundreds of years.