money is, really, the bane of my existence. there is always some problem with money and when it is always realized by other people that i hate money and would rather have nothing to do with it, things somehow become awkward. i don't like making money, i don't like needing money and i think this conviction makes me seem like an idiot to other people. money makes me tired. anything to do with it. i hate it.

i am maybe an idiot, i suppose. i have bad credit and no real financial security so i am obviously a horrible person.